i used to think i was smarter than everyone that i knew EVERYTHING &nd i didnt need anyone buht my self now i realize i CANT do shit on my own im so young buht i act so reckless like i dnt give a damn about waht might actually happen to me i agree that now would be a perfect time to change buht im scared to fail at life at school at relationships im scared im juhst to wrapped uhp in others that sometimes i cant focus on me...little me who craves attention little me who wants to be love little me who wants to look so perfect buht i have to be satisfied with juhst little me :) i am changing and it shows more and more everyday im coming out of my shell more and more i used to be the quiet one in the back now i giving directions from the front i believe i can be anything i want now if i just put my mind to it i dnt need a guy to tell me im pretty or that im this and that guys will LEAVE,KILL,&ND DESTROY yuhr insides if hes not the right one. So why rush to find something that isnt real?; girls kill there selves every day because of the smallest reasons im juhst so blessed im sound in the mind and heart i keep my head down in large crowds alone so that i can blend in im afraid the world is staring at my imperfections buht when im with my friends its like a sheild of comfort to hide those wounds people caused me to have over the years no one knows waht it feels like to come home with good news juhst to have it mutilated to bad news buht she smiles on she screams on she laughs on to hide her insides who will ever know she asks it juhst builds uhp until one day POW! she explodes into a fit of rage because no one heard her small cry no one fixed her imperfection no one noticed anything?.... there fore i am changing into a butterfly a rainbow after it rains i am something horrible turning pretty again :)
Thursday, May 28, 2009
Sunday, May 17, 2009
i need these in my life
you NEVER can go wrong with blazers ;) oh &nd
DAMNNNNN did someone make these hoes?! lolz
why do guys put off on EVERYTHING?
Okay so it seems to meh that every time i talk to a guy &nd i ghet comfortable things repeat there selves like nothing gets worse nothing ghets better? and i feel like why should i stay on a merry go round? if yuhr allowed to roam why cant i? IS THERE SOMETHING WRONG WITH THAT? nooooo! i guess it juhst the way i feel inside if im with yuh im WITH yuh anit no if and or buts about it. i guess im feeling like big l in this situation im "fed uhp with this bullsh**" i mean when im with a guy i stay and respect him im not gunnah lie i forgive and forget to easily buht doesn't every girl? i never been in love and i dnt wannabe so when a guy says it i lie -_- juhst so i dnt hurt there feelings! i guess im to soft when it comes to relationships buht im only 16 its alll so new to meh. when i give my all can yuh do meh a favor and do the same?
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Sunday, May 10, 2009
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