i used to think i was smarter than everyone that i knew EVERYTHING &nd i didnt need anyone buht my self now i realize i CANT do shit on my own im so young buht i act so reckless like i dnt give a damn about waht might actually happen to me i agree that now would be a perfect time to change buht im scared to fail at life at school at relationships im scared im juhst to wrapped uhp in others that sometimes i cant focus on me...little me who craves attention little me who wants to be love little me who wants to look so perfect buht i have to be satisfied with juhst little me :) i am changing and it shows more and more everyday im coming out of my shell more and more i used to be the quiet one in the back now i giving directions from the front i believe i can be anything i want now if i just put my mind to it i dnt need a guy to tell me im pretty or that im this and that guys will LEAVE,KILL,&ND DESTROY yuhr insides if hes not the right one. So why rush to find something that isnt real?; girls kill there selves every day because of the smallest reasons im juhst so blessed im sound in the mind and heart i keep my head down in large crowds alone so that i can blend in im afraid the world is staring at my imperfections buht when im with my friends its like a sheild of comfort to hide those wounds people caused me to have over the years no one knows waht it feels like to come home with good news juhst to have it mutilated to bad news buht she smiles on she screams on she laughs on to hide her insides who will ever know she asks it juhst builds uhp until one day POW! she explodes into a fit of rage because no one heard her small cry no one fixed her imperfection no one noticed anything?.... there fore i am changing into a butterfly a rainbow after it rains i am something horrible turning pretty again :)
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